What the Longings of My Heart Taught Me About The Heart of God

His provision alone would never be enough, it’s His love..it’s the way He romances us with a kind word spoken through a stranger, in the soft rain that falls, and the warm breeze that tousles your hair. It’s in the way that He longs to know your heart, the way He could sit for hours with you and never grow tired of hearing you. It’s in the way he pursues you always, never relenting, never growing tired of speaking those words over you. His heart is for you, its wrapped up in and around you. He longs for you, He wants you, with everything He is…and you have no choice but to respond with the same love, and together you are set on fire, and it is the most glorious meeting of two souls you will ever knonw…yours and the one who created you. It’s His love that brings us to Him again and again and again.

We come fully alive in the love that pursues without rest, in the heart that longs and pants for yours, in the fire that sets between you. It is a blazing torch that guides you home in the dark, it is the warmth when you are cold and afraid, it is the glow that brings life to your cheeks.

A woman pursued comes alive, just as a woman who isn’t being pursued withers and wilts. And this heart is the heart of God for his people. And this is the heart of God for us onto himself. That we would go on pursueing one another in this way.

It takes a heart, a whole heart…you cannot give only half or only a piece, it will require everything. But a man or a woman in love never thinks of the price, only of what it will feel like to hold your heart so close to theirs. No woman wants scraps and left over pieces, instead we want to  be special…special enough that someone would go that extra mile…special enough that you would write us just to say you missed us and were thinking of our smile, even if we’ve only been apart for five minutes. And this is the heart of God, he wants to not only be a passing thought throughout the day, he wants us to be captivated by Him.

 Lord forgive me for the ways that I haven’t pursued you. You are the heart of the man, the pursuer, the leader, the provider. You romance me and draw me out and make me come alive in your love…but you are also the heart of a woman, I can look at the longings of my heart and find that they reside in your heart too. They reflect the way you desire to be loved, to be seen as captivating. You long for me to pour out my affections for you because they are too great to contain, you desire for me to be so head over heels in love with you that I can’t sleep or breath without you. You long for my passion, my heart, my devotion, my care, my romance...just like I do. And I know the pain you feel when I neglect to show you this love Jesus. Let me sing of your love each morning and speak it tenderly to you each night. Let me shower you in affection, because I am captivated by you Lord, I do love you with everything I am.

I will pursue you. I will surrender it all to you, my whole heart.

Thank you Jesus.

I Desperatley Need Your Help!

So the deadline for my the payment of my tuition is coming fast, in fact it is only 17 days away!
God has been incredibly faithful and abundantly generous through you all as people from all over, and from all walks of life, have come together to support me! It's so incredibly moving to see that people believe that God is working through you enough to sacrifice to see it happen.
But we aren't there yet!


I still have to raise $1277.07 by July 13th in order to go where God is calling me to go.
And I desperatley need your help for it to happen.

That amount seems large and scary to me and I wonder if this will happen, if this can happen...
but to my God, the God who parts seas and moves mountains, all things are possible.

If it's on your heart to help me go forward into this calling and be trained in Micronesia then please donate online by CLICKING HERE.

If you'd like to mail me a check or money order you can email me at
yasemee_dorning@yahoo.com for my address and additional details!


Thank you! <3

Coming Home

Please be praying for me,

I havn't been seeking God and I've just kind of been stagnant in my faith and it's like a slow death; mold is growing on my heart and its slowly hardening. I feel like my spirit wreaks of this putrified death that I've allowed to cultivate in my heart. How do those who don't know God go around living like this? It's so empty and horrible. I HATE it here. Once you've had living water, once you've seen Jesus laugh and smile and take your hand lovingly, there really is no turning back. I used to feast on pain, on excess, on alcohol and peoples praise, I used to feast on relationship, on media, on makeup and clothes, I used to feast on dreams centered around having more... they were like ashes in my mouth.
But then one day I was walking by a well and a man offered me a drink, a sip of living water. And the death and ashes burst forth into green life full of the most beauitful, wonderful tasting fruit, full of wildflowers and tall tress. An eden bloomed in my heart at that first taste. And when I look at the state of my heart  today in comparison to that, I know the truth:
faith isn't stagnant.

Faith and love are ALIVE.
They grow and move and bloom.
But you have to tend them, you have to care for the Eden that excists in your heart or it withers and dies, overcome by weeds it strangles and chokes out. The once beautiful fruit begins to rot, and their poison seeps into your bones and into your soul, and destroys every green thing that ever lived there.

But I'm turning back now, and thankfull my beautiful, wonderful, passionate, playful God isn't back where I left Him. No, He's been following me all along. I've walked on for miles without my Jesus, but I turn around to come home and He's right there with opens arms. He never left. He whispers to me, "I have pursued you from the beggining, before time began you were mine and you will be mine long after it ends. I pursue you then & now, and I always will. I never tire of pursueing you, you are precious to me and honored. I love you."

A song by Michael Ketterer called Dusty Road captures the way I feel perfectly.
"And I've been gone, for a long time now... a wonderer, on this dusty road. And I'm crying out, I'm crying out for you God, to come to me... and lead me home.
And you meet me Father, on this dusty road. And you come with a ring, and you come with a robe. And you meeet me Father on this dusty road. And you wipe away my tears, and you lead me home."

I got a vision this morning for my life. I've been praying for a statement, for a vision statement from God of what my life ministry will be, of how I need to live each day. And today He told me my statement is this:

A life marked by devotion, holyness, and love. A life commited to showing Christ to others, and igniting a fire in the hearts of those around me. A life commited to bringing the kingdom to those who don't know him or have him yet. A life that is uncomfortable because it is full of loving broken people and giving everything I am for everything He is. A life lived for one thing and one thing alone: to surrender my heart, mind, body, and soul to Jesus Christ.


The Son is rising soon, and the night is almost done; the end is almost here and so close at hand.
I'm going to live like it.


This morning I got a vision of someone taking my hand, and as his calloused fingers weaved into mine I knowingly and lovingly looked up at my Saviour and whispered, "Hello old friend."


I have found the one whom my soul loves.
-Song of Solomon 3:4